Dark Days

“Apart from me you can do nothing.” (John 15:5)

As I bow down before the Lord this morning, I know there is nothing I can do without Him. For three days I have been in a dark place unable to hear from God. One reason is the enemy is very real. Anytime I give FULL SURRENDER to the Lord, the enemy comes in and does everything in his “limited” power to throw me off guard. It first started three days back at the end of my day with tending to an elderly neighbor that turned into a nine hour stay at the ER, then coming home 30 minutes before I would have to wake up and start my day all over. Sleep deprovision is an attack from the enemy, because when you are tired and wore out, he will then get you to thinking on things that are not true. Or if another obstacle arises in that time of tiredness you cannot handle it with a sound mind. I know that to be true because the Word of God says in (2 Ti. 1:7) that God gave me a sound mind, so confusion obviously is from the enemy. Due to the lack of rest I am now so exhausted and do not have the energy to do the things that were on my agenda, so I got behind. The enemy doesn’t allow for rest, but God says, “I will give you rest” (Matt. 11:28-30) I wasn’t just tired in my physical body, now I was needing spiritual rest and only Jesus could provide that. Long story short, I went on and worked harder and longer to accomplish the things that needed to be done, with much frustration. I felt overwhelmed, ungrateful, couldn’t see the good in anything for about 24 hours. I don’t know about anyone else, but the enemy can really play havoc on my mind when I am exhausted. I was not feeling a spirit of obedience unto the Lord either, that was for sure. See if he can get you to a place where you are even frustrated with God that will take you down a whole other path. Being that obedience in the Lord is an area I have been trying very hard to do well along with my word for the year, “INTENTIONAL,” yeah he had me right where he wanted me, obedience wasn’t a thing for those three days, sad to admit. I am just thankful that I woke up this morning and by the grace of God, was able to see him and the tactics he was using to get me off kilter. I have my mind in the right place today; I’m trusting in God’s faithfulness: Remembering that His mercies are new every morning (Lamentations 3:22-23). I am approaching God’s throne of grace with confidence, so that I may receive mercy and find grace to help me in my time of need. (Hebrews 4:16) and I am in need of Him. You see, I know I can’t do this without Him. I just spent 3 days in my own strength and where did that get me? So distraught that I only found myself singing, “Come Jesus Come” with all my heart. I wanted the pain and suffering to be gone, I wanted every wrong to be made right. We can find ourselves in a really pathetic state of mind when we let loose of the hand of Jesus and try to take the wheel ourself. Another sad part of that is, this was not the first time, but sadder yet, It won’t be the last either. Because I am human and I live in a fallen world and I am flawed and I have struggles, but the GOOD NEWS is; I have Jesus, to help pull me up from those dark days when I have been under attack. And that, is why we NEED Jesus.